yc 2012
so i went to yc this weekend and met the most perfect guy ever! like holy he probably thinks im a creep but yeah he is like an environmental enthusist as well and a christian and shit he opened my eyes to reality and i wish he didnt live far away :(
i so consistantly wonder why things happen. I mean every little thing I had joy in gets torn apart. Every person I love leaves. like why? why me? I am so innocent, im a virgin, I am never mean to people, I am that loner girl who reads books as her escape from reality. So why. I mean acouple days ago I found out my dad is dying of cancer. I havent seen him since I was alittle girl cause he is a drug addict. But All I can think about is how he would sing me “you are my sunshine my only sunshine you make me happy when skies are grey” :( I miss him and everytime I talked to him on the phone I would cry. I wont be on for alittle while. not until I find my place in this world cause right now im running from everything. my fear is myself. im scared that the few who are still with me will leave. so i hide in my basement in my room. watching harry potter and writting poetry.
<3
“Over You”
By now I should be used to the cold
Mid-February shouldn’t be so scary
It was only December
I still remember the presents, the tree, you and me
But you went away
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I’ll be OK
But I’m not going to ever get over you
Living alone here in this place
I think of you, and I’m not afraid
Your favorite records make me feel better
Cause you sing along
With every song
I know you didn’t mean to give them to me
But you went away
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I’ll be OK
But I’m not going to ever get over you
It really sinks in, you know, when I see it in stone
Cause you went away,
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I’ll be OK
But I’m not going to ever get over you
